i'll never be the same

If I could just tell you 

hope you'd understand

You don't have to say much

Just hold my hand

For so many years I

Felt lonely and shamed

I was lost in my fear

And 

I thought i'd be blamed

​

Im closing my eyes now

And hoping it disappears

I get lost in those moments

Hiding my tears

​

I swear I tried 

pretending it's nothing

It changed my life

The silence might drive me insane

I don’t think i'll be the same

I swear I tried

Pretending the scars

Didn’t change my life

The clouds in my eyes start to rain

I don’t think ill be the same

​

And I tried to tell you

But you didn't believe me

You just pretend it was made up

And acted naive

unsafe in my own room

As a ten year old kid

Touched by the wrong hands

I was afraid to exist

​

Im closing my eyes now

And hoping it disappears

I get lost in those moments

Hiding my tears

​

I swear I tried 

pretending it's nothing

It changed my life

The silence might drive me insane

I dont think ill be the same

I swear I tried

Pretending the scars

Didn’t change my life

The clouds in my eyes start to rain

I dont think ill be the same

​

If I could just tell you 

and you'd understand

You don't have to say much

Just hold my hand